I think to myself..what a wonderful world!!! Is this just a song??!!

I will never forget you my people...I have carved you on the palm of my hand..
I will never forget you..I will not leave you orphaned..I will never forget my own..
Does a mother forget her baby..she has carved her with love in her womb..
Does a mother forget her...does she ever leave her orphaned..
I will never forget my own....

This was just a school hymn ..... but today its a finger I always hold on to :-) A recent incident just made me think...why do people wanna go for moksh...may be I do not understand its deeper meaning but inspite of all hardships, ilnnesses, struggle all around.... I would still want to be blessed to be born again and be able to live in this God's carved world... HE didn't make it the way it is...he made a beautiful world...Dig, hunt, feel, close your eyes and see..there still lies beauty in the world.. I would wish to get born again and live through all the worldly relations ..... BUTT...is it because I consider myself blessed. Don't I have any problems in my life?? I have had...I will have..Life is not a bed of roses...BUT are those hard moments heavier than those love filled ones which I still remember and miss ??!!

ITNI SHAKTI HUMEI DENA DATA....MANN KA VISHWAS KAMZOR HO NA....

Someone asked - Wat is a daughter ??

:-) Being mom to one... for me the instant thought that came as an answer to the question was - my daughter is... is a satin ribbon Almighty wrapped around to hold the bond between me n my hubby stronger..... she is a lesson that time and again makes me realise my mum's value for her efforts of motherhood..... she is a blessing to me that helped me know much much more about myself....who let me learn how patient I can be....how dreadful can I be  at any incident that didn't really happen..... she is a fear....a fear which I didn't realise that it was within my parents when I was getting married being loaded with tons of instructions from my parents on how to settle in the new life with new people and I used to be like...plz I'm just going to a new house!! lolz....a daughter is a bunch of flowers...a cherished bottle of perfume....an always filled mug of tears of joy over the months,days,moments that pass by of her childhood mischiefs...

 

Woops, getting too emotional...but a daughter is always a princess to her parents !!

Fantasies...questions...wonder !!

A lovely bed time story is what my angel looks forward to as soon as sun sets and she begins to ask with a naughty smile - mumma aj khaane mei kya hai?!! My 4 year old often brings up smiles to my face...tickles my brain..touches my heart and makes me dig my soul to answer her innocent questions....
Mumma....you say God is our father...he created all of us...you say plants, animals all are living things and if we hurt any..God is hurt and he will some day ask me from my diary he maitains..why I did so and so...

Yes Darling..thats true...dont be afraid or shy to ask...always be sure that whatever you are doing is right and be humble to accept when it was not right...

Then why do these big fish in discovery eat up those small ones....why does a lion teach its cubs to hunst..why does a Cow, whom we say MATA..eat up the grass...Doesn't God maintain their diaries..Don't their parents teach them not to hurt the smaller weaker living things..
Ahh !! my baby...she is too young to understand the life cycle...hierarchy...nature..but I tried...she listens...seems to be imagining what I am telling her...I am hesitant to have another shot of question from her...Each time I answer her , my brain goes...zooooom...will my answer satisfy her or will it have a second meaning good enough t o confuse her...

This was just one short instance of a few moments, out of the many longer ones ... INNOCENCE ... is God gifted ..... passion...humanity.... love ...embrace.... is what we root into our kids ..... I don't want her to be away from the path of God neither do I want her to get too soft at heart when she sees other's needs and miseries... God help me lead her the right way. I miss my parents each day more n more... those moments when they must have joined hands for me and I was just an innocent kid :-) Thanks Mum Papa... for making me a human that I am... and a big thanks to my hubby dear for adding to it and being with me to follow all this ;-)

Do I support Anna ??

The hottest topic these days  - Team Anna and Sarkar !!! I am lending my ears each moment to the news channels to keep myself updated or to say to keep pushing me into  a dilemma all the more. Day One...Day two...Read about Anna's background. Yes, I knew about his past revolutions through fasting but this one - Is it really some sort of freedom we are fighting for... In that case who has been holding us till now ...IS it just the Sarkar ?? Hats off to Anna.. he began with a noble cause.. no selfish motives... this man had all the determination and strength to bring the entire nation together for a single cause but CORRUPTION - What is it exactly that we Indians today are standing to fight against. I too cribbed when it was about my kids admission.... when it was about my earnings being taxed and then having to pay additional taxes over again on each small and big item. I have had a strong yes to those who said system is taking us and our future to a living hell ... but then IS that enough to define corruption?? WIll a law...a bill passed in real means help control this to at least some extent. A FEAR .... which must be haunting many of us educated and earning middle class today... a fear - What if something turns worse ... How will we manage??? SIGH, a deep SIGH !! and my heart mumbles a name... a name which I have no fear or doubt about - GOD, HELP US ALL AND HOLD OUR FINGER AND LEAD US TO THE RIGHT PATH !!

No law can control such issues until and unless the involved let their conscience awake..until they see what their small and big deeds are preparing for their own future generation too..their kids and grandkids. Its one, two , moe, many more humans who have brought in this CORRUPTION ..... If one man.....if lakhs and crores have their conscience awake ...why not those handful ...why are we crores suffering at hands of those handful and WHO are those handful??

Wake up humans ..... Almighty is watching you .... us .. BE HUMAN... the ones HE created by his own hands ... HE says - I have carved you on the palm of my hand !!

And there's so much to say ...

Yes..I can speak..speak..speak..write..write and write ..... but from where to begin... Now whats most important in my life to me?? I just put this question up to myself and thought its answer would be what I write about first...So..WHATS MOST IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE TO ME??!!  Family...says my mind, heart and soul... mmm...Hey hey hey... I am a professional woman.... should this really be my first blog topic? WHY NOT?? What do I use all my professionalism for....my family!! Professionalism in balancing work and home ... professionalism in parenting my li'll one.... professionalism in trying to keep all members smiling back to me....and then comes professionalism in trying to be a supporting hand in incoming funds ;-) Okay...so I am a family woman first and then a working professional - THIS is the answer I get for myself by writing down my first blog... lol... They say just write, write anything you feel like, just write :-)

I am just hopin..all bloggers on this earth are not strictly good writers...I am one of those who are not. What got me here?? Wonder!! I have been wondering what exactly is this world about..about ourselves, about society we live in, about work we do, about family, about kids, about responsibilities, about wishes, about pleasures, about success or about failures....I was wondering do we all know what we are or we just know what we have become !! Why do I want to please the ones I love, why do I want to raise my kids well enough, why do I wish to help the needy, what makes 2 human bodies made of flesh and bones think, act, feel differently !! Woops...WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD ??!!

This wonder brought me here..as a blogger..to share and to learn :-)